My friendster blog is my first love but posting takes much time here in friendster. In fact, I don't know guys if you have similar experiences like me, there are several instances where my computer just hung up and re-booted whenever I log in here.
So inevitably I had to resort to my blogger account. I'll see you there guys~
I just came from my family's weekend trip to the Northern region of South Korea- 경기도. My sis-in-law and her family arranged a ski trip (Daemyeong Resort- Vivaldi Park) with the whole family. It was really, really fun but tiring... really. This is my second ski experience and I found it to be very interesting and worth the hurt... Ouch~
So I thought of those good things that money could do to make people happy. We stayed there for three days and two nights (thanks for my sis-in-law's membership benefits~) and although staying there is quite fun, money is what you'll always need there.
Then I thought of my fellow teacher who just luckily won in lottery (320,000,000 won approximately around 338K USD) and thought of the good things she could get.... She told me before she left the school that she'll travel around Europe with her family, buy a new new house, buy an imported car and give some cash to her family... Hmmm... I'm very green with envy!
I went first by an express bus because of my work. My work starts at 1 p.m. so, I had to leave Chloe with my in-laws and my husband drove all the way from Kyeong GI Province (it takes around 6~7 hours of driving). So they came home first.
So when I got home the atmosphere was different, my two sister-in-laws along with my husband was discussing about a serious issue. With a glass of beer and some chicken in front of them, my husband told me that Chloe was sleeping and I may sleep with her early because there were things that they had to discuss with my sis-in-laws.
I got a little upset about it, 'coz I always thought that I am now a part of his family. Should there be any discussion that may be in our house, I should also be there participating or the least, listening about the matter.
SO I stayed in our room with Chloe.
Maybe it was curiousity that pulled me to eavesdrop on their conversation (I know it wasn't right-.-) and found out that my other sis-in-law has been all the while consulting at a psychiatrist about a childhood trauma.
I don't know exactly when and what happens but according to what I've heard, she had given much love to her family (my husband's family) and had shown much care to them but that love hasn't been recognized neither returned. Instead, the more they asked from her thinking, "anyways she kind and she'll understand" things like that makes that pain grow more and more over the years... She therefore doesn't meet her friends, her lifestyle too peculiar and much more she hasn't much to offer to her own family (Don't get this wrong, she loves her own family but in the other way she can't truly, naturally do it the way she wants it).
I felt a little sorry, It was indeed an issue of the family. I never wanted anymore to listen so I went to the bed and lay beside Chloe.
Winners or lossers? who cares? that's life...
Wait 'til I get 'ya!
After more than a year. I've come to think of writing again here in my blog. My work in school and my baby, Chloe, keep me busy 24/7. It's quite a very hard work, being a teacher, mother and a wife... a daughter in-law, a friend... a family... in different times.
How I miss my singlehood! Where I have all the pleasures of being young! But this doesn't mean I hate my life right now. No, no..no. It's just that there will always come to a point in our lives that one would always think of some good things that happened in the past.
I miss surely my freedom. Late movie watching with friends, bar hopping, eating out... bowling, coffee shop with girlfriends, shopping in SM, texting and some thought of ...... ooopppps!
But here's the catch: If I'm gonna live my life again, I'd still choose my life right now even if things are not as easy as they are right now.
I started the second trimester and I guess the baby is fine inside my tummy. But I do get nervous at times thinking maybe something has gone wrong...No, I shouldn't get worried about these thoughts. The urine and QUAD results are enough to say the baby is perfectly healthy inside.
Lately, Tommy is getting pretty excited being a future daddy. I heard from a colleague of mine that a baby could hear their father voices more because of their fathers' "low-toned" voices. So every morning and night, Tommy almost always talk infront of my tummy... (it looks very cute and lovely ^^ I always wonder what kind of father will he be...)
Still, I feel more and more pregnant... My belly is getting bigger and bigger, I have to go to the bathroom more often that I'd like to, I get hungry more than the usual, have headaches and heartburns once in a while. But at least I don't (and I hope NEVER again~)throw up nowadays. I just don't feel good whenever I brush my teeth every after meals... It really feels awful and disgusting~ grrrrrrrr....
Next month, we'll get to know whether the baby is girl or boy. Tommy and I are really looking forward to it.... CAN'T WAIT~
You take pleasure in experimenting with your look. You're always trying out new styles, fragrances, and beauty treatments. Sometimes you're trying to enhance what you've got. At other times your appearance is something you're creative with. Experimenting with a totally new haircut or the latest foaming face scrub is your way of exploring the world around you through different skins.
You are well aware that sheer makeup looks better on soft, well-cared for skin, so you try to keep your pores free from blemishes and oil. You don't have a signature scent because you're too busy trying them all to pick a favorite. At times you may risk hiding your true self behind all this glamorous self-indulgence, but hopefully you're just expressing your flamboyant, creative personality through lipstick, scents, and other fancy stuff.
You're green, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!
I lost my voice yesterday and I could hardly speak right now.
I feel I'm gonna die without saying any word. Tommy and I went to a nearby drugstore and asked for a medicine since it's holiday today so EENT clinics might not open. I thought of my class.. how could I ever go to school??? Oh dear me... I speak in whisper and the more I try, the more my throat aches. I just hope the medicine would help~ PLEASE.
I chat with my sister last night and she's getting ready to go back to school this coming June. After stopping for almost 7 years she still has the courage to face what's ahead of her. And I'm quite curious of what would it be... sure it'll turn out good. As the two of us always say... we'll see each other in New York or in Paris... hehehe....
Last week we had an excursion trip to "Nuri Maru" or APEC house in Heaundae. Actually it was not really as special as I expected but the view from the house makes it a perfect place for conference- the sky, sea and the land form.
It's March and I've never enrolled to any morning sport yet. Winter mornings are still dark and I'm afraid to walk all by myself in the mornings... add the occasional rain showers that makes my mood so gloomy that all I wanna do is to stay in bed and never go to school at all.
In two to three weeks it'll be Spring again. Warm and pleasant weather is coming ahead!!! What's the best hing to do??? Shopping new clothes!!! (^^,)
I love the way you smile
When I look your eyes
I love the way you laugh
When I try to be funny
And how a tear rolls down your face
When I say no one could ever take your place.
Baby when you sleep
I watched you breathing
Baby when you dream
I dream with you
Cause everywhere you are is where
I wanna be
It's true everything you do
Makes me know how much I love you.
The way you touch my lips
Right after every kiss
And softly whisper
That I'm your everything
The way you pray
Our love won't die
Every night just before you
Close your eyes.
And I believe something are
meant to be
Cause I believe inlove and
yours was meant for me.
You wouldn't imagine how unlucky I am in posting this blog... I was almost finished and about to click post when my computer just suddenly restarted... Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!
Anyways.....
Hello guys! How have you been lately and how's life goin'?
I have plenty of stories to tell but actually was..(I mean, I still am ) very busy for the last few weeks.
I gave up my bowling lessons and got a new job in Metro City.
There was another call last week offering me another office work but I declined the offer... I got the job that I needed.
Tommy and I moved into a new house and spent the Lunar holidays with my in-laws. We had a very busy holiday because my in-laws just remodelled their whole apartment and as "the one and only dutiful son and daughter-in-law," we had to help them moving the furniture in and out of the house. Remodelling an old apartment house is twice as difficult as moving into a new house... For Goodness sake~~~
I'm still working on the dissertation~ shit.
I'm stressed up and can't find some relevant materials and local dissertations that I needed... It's been almost a year!!!
And this morning, I was very hopeful that classes would be suspended because of the heavy snow... BUT.. it was only a wishful thinking... got the 9:30 subway to Kyeongsung University and arrived to my class 10 minutes late... ã .ã Poor me~
I was somehow broadcast in HCN channel... it was terrible. I was interviewed in Korean (life in Korea as a foreigner)... of course I should answer in Korean too, right? but then it turned out to be funny~ Tommy still makes fun of me after that.
I lost some weight they say, but I'm not yet so sure about that. But I am thinking of taking Yoga again this month or a combination of aquatic sports for a morning sport. I gave up bowling because I hear my bones cracking... do I somehow need glucosamine supplements???
Called back Philippines and had a word with my sis. Heard Cheryle will get married here in May. Tet is working for Doosol. Oh... how I miss them...
I wish I could spend some more time home and kill time with Tommy...just doing anything... just like before.
Hope all of you are well and in great shape. Be healthy and Be happy~
I grieve today because we lost our precious niece.
Her name is Kurt Nicole, the daughter of my youngest sis.
She suffered too much pain at a very young age.
Little that we knew she would go away that early...
But we were very proud of her because she kept on fighting 'til the end.
We'll be missing you... mommy and daddy will surely do a lot.
You'll be at peace now... no more pain. We love you... and we're truly sorry that you have suffered much.
Goodbye.
It's good to be back here writing in my blog. Now where have I all been these days? Hmmmmm.. yeah, I was really busy. Time slips easily these days. Maybe it's because I had a lot of things to do... (I mean, I a ALWAYS HAVE a lot of things to do). I never notice that the year is almost ending. My dear~ I never even fulfilled my new year's resolution!!! There's a another year anyways... (too bad)
I guess some pictures in my photo album will tell what I have done for the last few weeks that I never wrote anything in this blog. That would be my trip to Andong and Chungmu(the nappoli of Korea as they say). My trip to Andong was sponsored by The PWHL team where I attended some seminar about Korean culture, sex and violence, child rearing and the like together with different foreign wives here in Busan. The trip was actually more of a cultural experience more than the usual sight-seeing. They taught us to do some traditional charms and let us know more about the traditional house, its' different parts and and functions. It was interesting actually learning at the same time being with a bunch of new friends. Tommy was also with me that day.
Chungmu, on the other hand, was such a nice place to stay. It was Tommy's birthday trip this time. We went there with the rest of the family and stayed for two days. Actually we never did anything special but the place indeed made the trip very memorable and fun. We just drove around the downtown and had plenty of sushi on our first night. After the heavy and delicious dinner, we all went bowling... you won't believe it but even Tommy's 84-year-old grand mother played that night. It was really fun! Of course add some alcohol and that would be a great night-out.
Check these out:
The rest of my days was spent studying, meeting friends, driving, bowling and bowling. By the way, The PIFF was also very nice (we met Jacky Chan and Kim Hee Sun in person).
I think my boredom has come into end.
Sometimes a man has to choose
And do something he doesn't wanna do
Do I live my life with you as my wife?
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream?
I gotta do this for me
Cuz if I dont I'll probably regret it
But if I do I'll probably regret it
How do I cope?
CHORUS:
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothin you can do about it
How do you deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though its heart-breakin'
It's somethin' that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live..
How do I deal without you
It's killing me to know
That your heart's with me
But you're with him cuz I chose to be
In this industry
Money, shows and hoes come along with
Luxury and pain
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life
That I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime
Without you
[CHORUS]
SOLO:
How do you deal when
you can't be with the one you love
And the one that you love is with somebody else
(I don't know, I don't know)
And what do you do
when you know she don't love him
and she loves me but she just can't stand loving you far away
(I guess I'm gonna have to just)
You just deal with it, deal with it
(I don't want to have to live with it)
You just deal with it, deal with it
(no, no, no)
You just deal with it, deal with it
(I don't want nobody else loving you)
You just deal with it, deal with it
(I don't want nobody else loving me)
[CHORUS 2X]
Today I drove past Jurye to Seomyeon and then back home. Tommy said I've been doing quite well (the confidence to be exact) but I'm lacking the basics- taking sudden and quick glances from the rear and side mirrors, braking (Break! break! bre-aa-kkk! like what he always yells..)and merging another lane for some distance. It was stressful and difficult...(being beside him while driving) because he was really tough on me (NO EXCUSES and RISKS like what he says) unlike my driving instructor in Socialites. It makes me feel stuffy at times..and annoyed... how come he would expect that much from a beginner. I sometimes wonder too If he would be exactly like that If I were still his girlfriend. Maybe he would be soft-spoken and a little careful with his tone.
Why is it when our loveones try to correct us with our mistakes, it's too difficult to swallow our pride and say.."yeah I was wrong..and you were right." That makes things much more complicated. Especially me, where PRIDE is all that I've got.
On the brighter side, I always thank him for correcting me. At least I've got to think about myself, my character and the way I accept or deal with criticisms. Honestly speaking, I've never known myself better than before 'coz I always do my stuff on my own way...I never heed advices from anyone (I'm the living example of the word "stubborn"). Maybe because I grew up like that-- taking risks and managing my own. Sorry for that baby~
However, people grow and change through time and experiences.
Am I correct or just.... Maybe??
Everybody has a talent.
One may be good at singing, dancing, playing sports, baking or cooking... but for me I feel cooking filipino food is really not my talent.
Last Sunday after going to mass, my feet took me infront of a Bonggo Truck loaded with Philippine goods. My eyes were filled with much happiness to see all my goodies being sold in the truck- the cheese, nata de coco, polvoron, Red Chippy, condensed milk, nido, some fresh vegetables and a lot more. To my cravings, I thought it woud be best If I'll try to cook something for the whole family since I've never tried cooking filipino food here in Korea. So I bought a bundle of string beans (sitaw), a bundle of Kangkong, three pieces of bitter melon (ampalaya), 2 pieces of Tilapia, a sinigang mix and a tomato sauce. With the smiles I wear on my face I was really confident I could do a nice sweet and sour tilapia and a side dish of ginisang ampalaya.
So I did what I had to do. Cleaned the fish, fried and sauteed all ingredients in the sweet and sour sauce. Then cut the ampalaya and sauteed with tomatoes and egg. Presto! Done.
Then the tasting began. The Sweet and Sour Tilapia looked pretty much delicious... when tasted.. bland. I forgot to put salt on the fish before frying. Then I tasted the sauteed ampalaya. Mmmmmm~ remember the feeling when you bit a lansones seed? it was the very same feeling. The problem? I just found it out when I asked Ate Nympha why it was bitter. I never mashed the ampalaya with salt before I sauteed it. Poor me! My ambitious attempt of a perfect dish went nothing. (To justify my deeds, I rarely cooked way back before)
And so, I still have remaining hope.. to cook a perfect sinigang this weekend. But before that, I had already called Ate Nympha on how to cook sinigang in details( She was really bursting with laughter when I told her the results of my cooking).
Lessons that I've learned:
1. Get to know the procedures.
2. Get to know the taste.
3. Get a lot of practice (visualizing is one but trying is much challenging)
4. And lastly, prepare some good reasons when everything turns out bad-- "Actually, I wasn't good at that!" or "Hmm, it was my first attempt" to exempt you from criticisms... hehe
Take me as you are, Push me off the road the sadness, I need this time to be with you I'm freezing in the sun; I'm burning in the rain The silence; I'm screaming, Calling out your name. And I do reside in your light Put out the fire with me and find Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles That's what I'll do if we say goodbye. To be is all I gotta be And all that I see And all that I need this time To me the life you gave me The day you said goodnight. The calmness in your face That I see through the night The warmth of your light is pressing unto us You didn't ask me why I never would have known oblivion is falling down. And I do reside in your hear Put out the fire with me and find Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles That's what I'll do if we say goodbye. To be is all I gotta be And all that I see And all that I need this time To me the life you gave me The day you said goodnight. If you could only know me like your prayers at night Then everything between you and me will be all right. To be is all I gotta be And all that I see And all that I need this time To me the life you gave me The day you said goodnight. She's already taken, She's already taken She's already taken me She's already taken, She's already taken She's already taken me. The day you said goodnight
Listen to the song!
I couldn't believe somehow how fate have been not so great but nice to me. Yes, I usually complain how my life changes drastically from one situation to another but fortunately there are good times instore right after. Recently, I got to meet some friends here in Busan and had regained a piece of being "me" with other people. I cracked jokes, smiled a lot and even laughed with them. Remembering my old days as a teacher in a Language Institute... It was such a relief! I wonder how I've been so pre-occupied with things that are not really worth the stress yet I am really stuck, stuffy and so stressful. (Is that being a korean in any sense?)So I got new friends... and I believe my life has changed anew again.
I'm back here in Korea from a month vacation in my home country~ Philippines. Yes, I really had plenty of good memories to keep as well as bad ones....but that's okay... loosing your CASIO EXILIM digicam, all jewellery, some $150, some 120,000 won, your priced white musk cologne and set of silver chain to your newly hired nanny... THAT'S OKAY, RIGHT? (GRRRRRRRR!!!! May SHE REST IN PEACE)
On the brighter side, I met my family, relatives and friends(College friends[Llynn, Amie, Bona, Ate Joy, Kuya Bhe, Pat], Doosol colleagues [Mike, Eric, Ms. Tina, Ube, Liezl, Mau]friends in Batangas)enjoyed good old jokes and stories of all kinds.
My ate and I enjoyed chatting and shopping all around the metro... unfortunately she gained some weight and it's too difficult for her to find trendy clothes that she likes. My younger sister got married to a wonderful man..(her college classmate) and now going to be mother. Kuya is still in Saudi and going home by the end of June..he said. Meanwhile, my relatives in Batangas are all perfecty fine.
Their houses got improved, and all of them are financially blessed this year. Lola Tanda is still fine although experiencing a lot of trouble with her aging body.
I learned driving too(M/T) and secured a non-professional driver's license at the LTO. I drove almost around NCR except Muntinlupa...inside.
Then my last week came. We went to Puerto Galera and had so much fun making sand castles, losing clothes because of the big waves, crazy banana boat ride, snorkeling at the coral garden and watching gay men dance and lip synch while serving beers to customers and swimming, eating and eating.
I even got the chance to attend to our baranggay fiesta the day after we came from Mindoro.
Sound fun, huh? It's nice to be back home.
Lost and all alone
I always thought that I could make it on my own
Since you left I hardly make it through the day
My tears get in the way
And I need you back to stay
I wander through the night
And search the world to find
The words to make it right
All I want is just the way it used to be
With you here close to me
I’ve got to make you see
That I’m lost without your love
Life without you isn’t worth the trouble of
I’m as helpless as a ship without a wheel
A touch without a feel
I can’t believe it’s real...
And someday soon I’ll wake
And find my heart won’t have to break
Yes I’m lost without your love
Life without you isn’t worth the trouble of
All I want is just the way it used to be
I need you here with me
Oh darlin’ can’t you see...
If we had love before
We can have it back once more
* A week apart is like million of years...
My dear! come back home!
I enjoy being alone lately. Taking a walk, reading a book, going on shopping and drinking my favorite blend of coffee. Although my life has totally been with Tommy the whole two years, I seem like feeling anew with the hopes of having myself improved this Spring. Yeah... being a wife of a korean makes a lot of pressures to me. Cultural differences and language barriers to name some... But with a positive outlook and patience I can do it! Yes!!!! I CAN...
Yeah this is the famous Korean island that Japanese are claiming their own. After several Korea-Japan friendship day, healing the wounds of war, participating in various cultural exhanges and holding even the FIFA together, it became clear that there still more scars that has never been erased. Kinda' sad right? For Koreans it's an invasion of territory and distortion of history. While Japanese are saying that Korean are just being so emotional adding that Takeshima is long theirs. Is that so? (to be continued....)
