Nhemskie's Haven

How to Deal

Sometimes a man has to choose
And do something he doesn't wanna do
Do I live my life with you as my wife?
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream?
I gotta do this for me
Cuz if I dont I'll probably regret it
But if I do I'll probably regret it
How do I cope?

CHORUS:

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothin you can do about it
How do you deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though its heart-breakin'
It's somethin' that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live..
How do I deal without you

It's killing me to know
That your heart's with me
But you're with him cuz I chose to be
In this industry
Money, shows and hoes come along with
Luxury and pain
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life
That I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime
Without you

[CHORUS]

SOLO:

How do you deal when
you can't be with the one you love
And the one that you love is with somebody else
(I don't know, I don't know)
And what do you do
when you know she don't love him
and she loves me but she just can't stand loving you far away
(I guess I'm gonna have to just)
You just deal with it, deal with it
(I don't want to have to live with it)
You just deal with it, deal with it
(no, no, no)
You just deal with it, deal with it
(I don't want nobody else loving you)
You just deal with it, deal with it
(I don't want nobody else loving me)

[CHORUS 2X]

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On The Road

Today I drove past Jurye to Seomyeon and then back home. Tommy said I've been doing quite well (the confidence to be exact) but I'm lacking the basics- taking sudden and quick glances from the rear and side mirrors, braking (Break! break! bre-aa-kkk! like what he always yells..)and merging another lane for some distance. It was stressful and difficult...(being beside him while driving) because he was really tough on me (NO EXCUSES and RISKS like what he says) unlike my driving instructor in Socialites. It makes me feel stuffy at times..and annoyed... how come he would expect that much from a beginner. I sometimes wonder too If he would be exactly like that If I were still his girlfriend. Maybe he would be soft-spoken and a little careful with his tone.

Why is it when our loveones try to correct us with our mistakes, it's too difficult to swallow our pride and say.."yeah I was wrong..and you were right." That makes things much more complicated. Especially me, where PRIDE is all that I've got.

On the brighter side, I always thank him for correcting me. At least I've got to think about myself, my character and the way I accept or deal with criticisms. Honestly speaking, I've never known myself better than before 'coz I always do my stuff on my own way...I never heed advices from anyone (I'm the living example of the word "stubborn"). Maybe because I grew up like that-- taking risks and managing my own. Sorry for that baby~

However, people grow and change through time and experiences.

Am I correct or just.... Maybe??

A Crash Course in Cooking

Everybody has a talent.

One may be good at singing, dancing, playing sports, baking or cooking... but for me I feel cooking filipino food is really not my talent.

Last Sunday after going to mass, my feet took me infront of a Bonggo Truck loaded with Philippine goods. My eyes were filled with much  happiness to see all my goodies being sold in the truck- the cheese, nata de coco, polvoron, Red Chippy, condensed milk, nido, some fresh vegetables and a lot more. To my cravings, I thought it woud be best If I'll try to cook something for the whole family since I've never tried cooking filipino food here in Korea. So I bought a bundle of string beans (sitaw), a bundle of Kangkong, three pieces of bitter melon (ampalaya), 2 pieces of Tilapia, a sinigang mix and a tomato sauce.  With the smiles I wear on my face I was really confident I could do a nice sweet and sour tilapia and a side dish of ginisang ampalaya.

So I did what I had to do. Cleaned the fish, fried and sauteed all ingredients in the sweet and sour sauce. Then cut the ampalaya and sauteed with tomatoes and egg. Presto! Done.

Then the tasting began. The Sweet and Sour Tilapia looked pretty much delicious... when tasted.. bland. I forgot to put salt on the fish before frying. Then I tasted the sauteed ampalaya. Mmmmmm~ remember the feeling when you bit a lansones seed? it was the very same feeling. The problem? I just found it out when I asked Ate Nympha why it was bitter. I never mashed the ampalaya with salt before I sauteed it. Poor me! My ambitious attempt of a perfect dish went nothing. (To justify my deeds, I rarely cooked way back before)
And so, I still have remaining hope.. to cook a perfect sinigang this weekend. But before that, I had already called Ate Nympha on how to cook sinigang in details( She was really bursting with laughter when I told her the results of my cooking).

Lessons that I've learned:

1. Get to know the procedures.
2. Get to know the taste.
3. Get a lot of practice (visualizing is one but trying is much challenging)
4. And lastly, prepare some good reasons when everything turns out bad-- "Actually, I wasn't good at that!" or "Hmm, it was my first attempt" to exempt you from criticisms... hehe